Monday, October 31, 2005

Insecurities in writing

Captain's Log, Stardate 10.31.2005

Happy Halloween! I'm filching--er, giving away candy at the front door to all these kids. (The Butterfinger Crisp bars are GOOD.)

I just emailed Dee about something that's been bugging me--as I do the rewrites for my suspense, I'm feeling insecure. I got great feedback from Wendy and those authors' scoresheets, so I know what I'd like to do, but I'm having a hard time feeling confident that I can do it.

Please, no fuzzy-wuzzy cyber-hugs or anything like that. This isn't something I need encouragement about. I need to sharpen my focus, sift through all I've learned from books, articles, and workshops. Most of all, I need to pray.

I know my insecurity often comes from Satan. I give in too easily. I was even expecting it, ever since the ACFW conference. I can't shake it. It's like flapping your hand to get gunk off your fingers, but it's too sticky to let loose.

I need to trust God, who has my writing career in His hands, after all. If I'm not ready, I'm not ready. I'm okay with that. I have to trust God to help me with this, it's not something I can do on my own.


  1. Praying for you, girl. You'll get it done.

    Oh, and Heather says I should smack you upside the head. You better keep an eye on me Wednesday.

    Mwah ha ha ha!


  2. sheesh the woman rats me out.

    Praying for you. You know I believe you can do it. (If you don't know that, where the heck have you been? LOL)

    "fuzzy-wuzzy cyber-hugs"


  3. A fuzzy-wuzzy cyber hug? Sheesh, what IS that? LOLOL Sorry, you know I'm not into the whole mushy touchy stuff! LOL But I AM praying for Him to guide you to where HE wants you to be.

    I don't think we're REAL writers if we aren't insecure. Some of the "big" writers still battle with it. I think as Christian writers, we're even worse. I mean, truly, how do we do justice to HIM???? I think we just have to listen to His voice in our stories and be obedient in how we respond.

    And buckling down and tackling a project where you know you need to tighten, hone, etc, can be daunting. But you're on the right track...praying for His guidance. Don't worry, toots, I'll be storming the throne room on your behalf as you are His obedient servant.

    No hugs, but how about a smiley? LOL :)

  4. Hi Camy,

    No hugs I promise. LOL!

    I feel insecure every other month. Its crazy, but I guess it goes with the territory.

    I have a bad episode right after a rejection or reading a good book. I'm like I'll never be good.

    Then I tell myself, sure you can, like you said. You get better as you learn.

    So keep learning,


  5. Camy, definitely a topic on my mind today... I'm in the same boat. Praying for you.

  6. Hey, Camy!
    I'm in the same boat today.
    I got a crit about "saran wrap" between the reader and the character. What an apt way to put it. But as I study the chapter, I don't know HOW to get rid of that barrier. And I'm reading a book by an author I love who has NOOOO barriers. I'm right in the head of the protag. So I'm feeling SUPER inadequate.
    Hang in there! Sharon