Making Mistakes

Captain’s Log, Stardate 12.29.04

I had a wonderful word of encouragement from Sharon today. She pointed out that I have a lot of fear-based thinking: If I don’t make the right decision, God won’t bless my writing career. That’s so limiting to God. Plus I’m human, of course I’m going to make mistakes. God’s grace is big enough to cover me. If my heart is earnestly seeking His will, even if I foul up, He forgives and He still blesses.

I am feeling better today about returning to work. Last night, my husband was very honest about how he’d prefer I have a stable job because he can’t guarantee he’ll even have a job at the end of January. Apparently this coming month will make or break his start-up company. I don’t know what I’ll do if work is so bad that I have to quit, despite not having another job lined up. I guess we’ll talk about it then. He has said he doesn’t want me to work for a bad manager, but I don’t know if he realizes how hard it is for me to return to this company.

I’m such a Voyager junkie. I watched the last disc of season 6 last night and I’m craving the next ones from season 7, which I won’t receive from Netflix until tomorrow.

Writing: I wrote about 2 pages yesterday (43-45). Hopefully I can get busy today and write more. I also need to write my Real Life Q&A column for RubyZine January 2005 issue. I think I will write about failure. :) I am also thinking about revising my YA short story “Jenny’s Winterball” and submitting it to some magazine for their December 2005 issue. I should probably get busy on that, finding markets for it. I think it’s too young and phoofy for Brio Magazine or Young Salvationist, probably more geared toward inner-teen age, 10-14.

Diet: doing okay, limiting myself to less than 2000 calories a day (and yes, I’ve been counting as well as I can). I should probably limit myself to 1500 calories but at least I’m not pigging out as much as I was before. I’m even eating healthy things like cottage cheese. :)