Wednesday, March 16, 2005


Captain’s Log, Stardate 03.16.2005

Okay, I freely admit I am procrastinating. I should be working on my ms but I’m not. Ha!

Actually, I did work on it a little earlier tonight.

Knee update: Doctor said to stay off the cycling to see if that causes the swelling to go down, in case the exercise is causing it. The ultrasound and interferential something-stimulation that the PT did on Monday seems to have helped, or maybe just the extra attention after I’d missed PT for a week. Regardless, since I have Mt. Hermon this weekend, I’ll see how the swelling is without the cycling and other stuff. I go back to PT on Friday next week to see how things are.

Chicklit: Okay, the girl who only window shops was a stupid idea. Why? Because she was lonely but distanced herself from people on purpose. I didn’t like her, and if I don’t like her then the reader won’t either. But I came up with an idea about how a girl feels when people only window-shop with her--they only see the surface, they don’t bother to see the beautiful woman inside.

One of the most impactful songs I know is by Zoegirl, “Plain.” Many times, a woman’s inner beauty gets dissed even by the woman herself. I remember feeling plain, I know there are other women who have felt that way, too. I want to write to them. I want to show them a heroine strong but vulnerable, who learns how to roll with the punches, who feels pain but rises joyous from the experience.

I am talking with Heather about why we enjoy blogging. She had a very insightful observation:

“[Blogging] allows you to not connect with someone when you are venting or what not. but at the same time many people see it. it is a weird thing.”

That’s so true. I can unload and yet be distanced from a living body who takes the brunt of my emotions, so I don’t have to worry about the hard edges. Of course, editing is necessary so I don’t get in trouble.

Okay, I think I am ready to get back to my wip. I don’t know if I’ll finish it by Mt. Hermon, but I’ll sure try.

1 comment :

  1. Awwwww you quoted me! LOL Now I wish I would have worded that a little more eloquently! ;-)