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"Held" by Natalie Grant

Captain's Log, Stardate 05.06.2006

Blog book giveaway:
My Monday book giveaway is three books by Tricia Goyer.
My Thursday book giveaway is SHADOW BONES by Colleen Rhoads (aka Colleen Coble).
You can still enter both giveaways. Just post a comment on each of those blog posts. On Monday, I'll draw the winner for Tricia Goyer’s books and post the title for another book I'm giving away. Stay tuned.

Held: I love Natalie Grant's music, but especially her "Awaken" album. This song--"Held"--is the inspiration for my heroine's spiritual epiphany scene in SOLO SASHIMI (working title).




HELD
Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling

Who told us we’d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
Were asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it’s unfair

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our Savior

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

TMI:

I Samuel: My co-ed Bible study is going through I & II Samuel, and today in I Samuel 8 there was something that struck me.

The people asked Samuel for a king because he's growing old, and God tells Samuel, "Hey, Sam, dude, don't get your panties in a twist. They aren't rejecting you, they're rejecting ME as their king."

And what does God do? He gives them their king.

Why would He do that? They're complaining and disobedient, but He gives them what they want. Thing is, He'd also raise up David in a few years, who would be a man after His own heart.

So I guess He took the Israelite's disobedience and accomplished something for His glory, for the sake of His name. Which is what He seems to do best, and which also means He can work good things despite any of my failures and sins.

Writing: Working hard. Please pray for me. I think I'm coming under spiritual attack.

Diet: I'm not doing too bad. I'm still trying to eat a small meal every 3 hours or so, and so far it's been helping me feel fuller on less calories. Also been good about drinking enough water and eating vegetables. Doing light exercise, but not as consistently as I should. And I think I injured myself yesterday, too! Sheesh.
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Mirtika said…
In the name of Jesus and in the power of the spirit, I ask you, Father, to rebuke any powers and forces that seek to undermine or distract or weaken Camy. By your power, by your Spirit, by your grace, fill her with strength and help her overcome any and all obstacles in her path.

Praises to you for hearing this prayer.

Mir--who has to tell you--and don't freak--that my devotion today was on that EXACT SAME PASSAGE about Samuel and the monarchy and the idiot people choosing a king over God...whoa!
Sat May 06, 11:18:00 AM 2006
Missy Tippens said…
I also use music in my writing, Camy. I often have a theme song. The words of Held are so powerful!

Thanks also for your post about Samuel. You and Mir were on the same wavelength. :)

If I've posted in the right place, please enter me in the book drawing!

Thanks!
Missy
Sat May 06, 01:07:00 PM 2006
Julie Carobini said…
Hi Camy,
As for the weight thing, I find that when on deadline, I sit way too long. Have a hard time tearing myself away from the screen. Do don't do that :-) Make sure to get up and walk outside, around the block, to the store, whatever. I don't think we were meant to sit sooo long. At least that's what my hips tell me :-)

Happy writing,
Julie
Sat May 06, 05:58:00 PM 2006
Ruth said…
I absolutely love Natalie G.'s "Held" album as well! And that is such a beautiful song. That CD is what made me a fan of NG's - I also loved the Christmas CD she released last year.
Sat May 06, 05:59:00 PM 2006
Danica Favorite said…
Praying for you my friend.

You know, I'm a lone wolf on this one, but when I heard Held, I LOVED it, until I really listened to the lyrics. It hits my heart in such a tender place that I can't listen to it much anymore. And then I read the story behind it somewhere on the 'net, and now I REALLY can't listen to it.

Yeah. I'm miss denial of pain, wanting life to be all daisies and roses.
Sat May 06, 11:18:00 PM 2006
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