キャミー・タング著「戌年」連載小説 プロのドッグトレーナーであるマリ・ムトウは、厄年を迎えている。 犬小屋と訓練所の改築をしながら、いつも不服そうにしている家族と同居することになった。母と姉に言わせれば、犬の毛とよだれかけにまみれる仕事は、家族にとって恥ずべきものだという。彼女は元カレを説得し、数ヶ月間犬を預かってもらうことにした。しかし、彼の兄は、数週間前に彼女が誤って車に追突した、怒り狂ったセキュリティ専門家であることが判明する。 アシュウィン・ケイトウは十分な問題を抱えている。叔母が玄関先に現れ、同居を希望している。彼は彼女にすべてを借りているので、断ることができません。母親が家を出て行った後、ネルおばさんはアシュウィンと弟を引き取り、愛のあるキリスト教の家庭で育てた。しかも、弟のダスティもアパートを追い出され、居場所を求めている。しかし、彼は犬を飼っている。そして、その犬の飼い主は誰だと思いますか? しかし、旧友でオアフ島のノースショアでデイスパを経営する私立探偵のエディサ・ゲレロから依頼を受ける。マリの施設で奇妙な破壊行為があり、3年前に失踪したエディサの妹の財布を発見する。エディサはマリが危険な目に遭っているのではと心配する。警備の専門家であるアシュウィンがすでにマリを知っていることを知ったエディサは、忙しい若い女性を密かに監視することを彼に依頼する。 アシュウィンは、活発でのんびりとしたドッグトレーナーに不本意ながら惹かれていく。彼女は、幸せそうな母親を思い出させる。その母親の裏切りによって、彼は人と距離を置くようになったのだ。マリは、アシュウィンの冷たい外見を見抜き、彼が家族に忠実な男であることを認める。彼は、彼女のキャリア選択を批判するだけの母親や姉とは違う。 マリのバラバラな家庭とアシュウィンのバラバラな家庭の中で、過去を隠そうとする人たちから、彼らの周りに危険が迫ってくるようになる。彼らは、影で動く秘密に光を当てることができるのか? 過去に発表されたパートへのリンクはこちら。 *** 第8章 - 恐ろしくも真っ白な不動産書類 『みんな仲良くできないのかな?』 マリは無用に力を込めて箱に本を投げ入れた。最近、なぜ彼女は人生の中で全員と言い争いをしているのだろう?もしかすると、これは本当に悪いアイデア
Captain's Log, Stardate 08.18.2010
After thinking about it, I will recant what I said yesterday. While I want carbs, because I like carbs, I’m not craving carbs.
I don’t feel that urgency to have starch like I used to. I still long for potato chips and French bread, but the oomph! inside of me to have them is not there. Before, I’d just listen to that oomph! and have the starch. Now, the oomph! is gone.
If I stopped this low-carb diet today, sure, I’d eat potato chips. (Actually, I miss pasta more.) But I don’t feel that grinding craving to have them that I used to.
Before, I’d dutifully eat the carrots and celery and cucumbers to try to distract me from the cravings, but I’d eventually give in and have the chips. Now, I eat the carrots and celery and cucumbers mostly because I need my non-starchy vegetable carb count to be higher, but what’s missing is that gnawing wanting for chips after I’m done eating the veggies. Sure, I’d like chips just cuz they taste good, but the “My entire body is crying for chips” feeling is gone.
My biggest problem now is making my calorie count. Since I’m only allowed 66 grams of complex carbs, the rest of my calories has to come from protein (non dairy) and non-starchy veggies. They say that in order to keep you from “starvation mode” where your body stores every bit of food as fat rather than using it, you need to eat at least 1200 calories a day. I’m having a really hard time making 1200 calories.
I never thought I would ever say that. Ever. And here I am, struggling to make 1200 calories a day.
I’m trying to keep myself from giving in to high fat protein options to up my calorie count, because too much fat isn’t good either. So there are days I just go over that 66 grams of complex carb guideline because I need to eat more. I usually eat only complex carbs, and pair it with protein and fiber if possible.
And gluten? Missing it, but not dying. But I couldn’t go gluten-free forever. I really give kudos to people who have to avoid gluten.
After thinking about it, I will recant what I said yesterday. While I want carbs, because I like carbs, I’m not craving carbs.
I don’t feel that urgency to have starch like I used to. I still long for potato chips and French bread, but the oomph! inside of me to have them is not there. Before, I’d just listen to that oomph! and have the starch. Now, the oomph! is gone.
If I stopped this low-carb diet today, sure, I’d eat potato chips. (Actually, I miss pasta more.) But I don’t feel that grinding craving to have them that I used to.
Before, I’d dutifully eat the carrots and celery and cucumbers to try to distract me from the cravings, but I’d eventually give in and have the chips. Now, I eat the carrots and celery and cucumbers mostly because I need my non-starchy vegetable carb count to be higher, but what’s missing is that gnawing wanting for chips after I’m done eating the veggies. Sure, I’d like chips just cuz they taste good, but the “My entire body is crying for chips” feeling is gone.
My biggest problem now is making my calorie count. Since I’m only allowed 66 grams of complex carbs, the rest of my calories has to come from protein (non dairy) and non-starchy veggies. They say that in order to keep you from “starvation mode” where your body stores every bit of food as fat rather than using it, you need to eat at least 1200 calories a day. I’m having a really hard time making 1200 calories.
I never thought I would ever say that. Ever. And here I am, struggling to make 1200 calories a day.
I’m trying to keep myself from giving in to high fat protein options to up my calorie count, because too much fat isn’t good either. So there are days I just go over that 66 grams of complex carb guideline because I need to eat more. I usually eat only complex carbs, and pair it with protein and fiber if possible.
And gluten? Missing it, but not dying. But I couldn’t go gluten-free forever. I really give kudos to people who have to avoid gluten.
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